She Was Only In It For The Rain

So I haven't written one of these in a million years.

(Just checked. It's been 14 days. Oops.)

Why haven't I been writing you say?

I'm not sure if I have a good answer for you.
This is my blog.
I can do what I want, when I want.
So.
Get over it.
Stop asking!

But in the time that I haven't been writing on here, I started something new. Not really a blog. More like a journal. Which is kind of what this is, but my journal is a bit more uncensored (Yikes!). Well, not really uncensored. More like unedited. There's only been one entry in it, but I just kind of wrote down everything I was feeling without really thinking about it.

Which is kind of what I wanted this to be.
A place to kind of vent about random crap that didn't really matter.
It started that way, I think, and in a way it kind of still is, I just have to take out all the important stuff so nobody knows who or what it's really about, and that's not really how things should go, is it?

We hide our true feelings so that no one gets hurt.
We put on some stupid mask that tells everyone, "I'm good, don't worry about me," but really we're crumbling away inside.
We laugh, make jokes, and continue as normal so that we don't have to deal with everyone asking what is wrong, and then have to explain your mess of a situation to anyone.

So why haven't I been writing lately?
Maybe I'm scared to talk about the serious stuff that I really want to talk about.
Maybe I'm ready to take off the mask and be a little more real.

Don't get me wrong though, you won't return to find a huge cryfest on here, but it might be a little different.
Or maybe I'll change my mind in the next few days and completely throw out everything I just said.
But I doubt it.

So think of this as a slight reboot.
Nothing to be afraid of.
Every title will still be the name of a song.
I'll still say oops in almost every one.
It'll just be a little bit less edited I guess.

So.
Here.
We.
Go.